Alright, so this post gonna be a continuation of my.... life. College life to be exact. I finished college back in nov. How was it?? Hmmm i have mixed feelings. At first i hated it. A lot. Starting the moment i stepped my feet till my last day there, i hated it. A lot. But now i finished 'em.... lowkey missed it?? It was quite funny actually i literally chant "im sick of being here when th im gonna graduate" every single day and now everything's over it feels kinda...... empty(?).
That aside, i do hv fun there. Oh and as mentioned earlier yes i majored in Digital Technology or in other words, IT (not gonna reveal where tho srry). My course was more into programming so yeah lots of coding gotta learn. html, css, php, java, c++. My personal favourite were html & css hhhh my 11-13 yrs blogger life came in useful i now understand all the purpose of coding i did back in my blogger days lmao. Ofc some part of the reason was thanks to my lecturer as well.
My friends were nice, roommates, classmates, lectures, everyone was nice. Even my class's PA (penasihat akademik) was super awesome. She truly cared for us a lot and even allowed us to call her mama （；へ：) and she even taught us. Like bruh she was the BEST.
The problem was me. I hate it there.
If you ask me the most unforgettable thing ever happened was on my first day arrived at the dorm and when i went to the toilet and was hella shook after checking all the cubicle and no squat toilet was seen lmfao. Yes toilet seat makes me uncomfortable and lowkey disgusted me cause.... yknow... dirty and having to put ur ass there.... nightmares. To make it worse there were no squat toilet at all in that place 😭
Enough bout toilets, what i hate bout being there first, life there was hella stressful. Like god i swear it was even more stressful than preparing for SPM. Assignments, projects, everything was given last minute AND at the same time. And yall expected me to stay sane?
Aku ingat lagi masa shortsem sem 3 dulu kena buat simple game or buku guna adobe animate cc utk project subject digital multimedia. Group aku buat game budak budak yg main match bentuk tu. 2 hari stay up sampai pagi sbb game tak jadi asyik error. Bulan puasa lagi time tu. Bila tak jadi buat lain pastu bagi org lain buat still tak jadi lagi pastu ulang lagi. Last last siap tapi still got error then we all redho present je lah mana yg boleh sbb memang tak sempat dh. Tapi actually satu kelas boleh kata game diorang not fully 100% functioning still got error. But alhamdulillah i still managed to get A for that subject.
Second, the rules. Some of them were stupid. Nak balik paling payah. Kena isi borang online pastu kena print pastu nk kena sign warden. Paling siot bila dh diluluskan tapi bila nk pi print kat koop, koop tutup. Last last tak balik lmfaoo. I still dont understand why they dont just install a system where student can just have to touch their id card to verify. Kata IT. That's what fueled my hatred more towards that place tho ahah.
My last three semesters were hell. My mental health went downhill as i was filled with negative thought every single day. I dont wanna self diagnose but idk felt like i fell into depression hole. I lost myself. I wanted to be gone. Felt like i was going insane if i stay there longer. Yet i never told anyone bout this. And that's what made me worse. I couldnt tell anyone cause i.... idk i dont trust ppl enough to tell someone when it comes to mental health. Im not even an open person to begin with tho. Im terrible at expressing myself. Ppl often tell me i always look so calm even in stressful situations. True. I dont like being stressed. Cause everytime i got stressed i dont know how to handle things. So everytime something starting to get on my nerves i would just shoved it away.
It's not healthy to keep everything to yourself. Please dont do that. Cause the more you bottled things up, one day it will get overflow and if you dont know how to handle that, it will eat you. So please at least find someone you fully trust to talk away your worries, sadness, stress or anything.
Sigh.
Ok enough that, so for my final year project, it was during short sem so the time was really limited cause we only got 7 weeks to finish everything. For my group we created an app for spa where you can book for treatment and the staff will come to your place. It was a suggestion by our supervisor and the idea was inspired by booking app on playstore. It was hard but we survived haha.
Um so this post turned out longer than i expected. So anyways, college's over and im feeling better now, just sometimes i would overthinking and i will be graduating this Aug inshallah. I wanna search for job but unfortunately i gotta hold first cause of covid19. With this pandemic going on around the globe now, always wash your hands with soap, most importantly stay at home and dont be selfish by going out. Even if you do, pls dont forget social distancing. I hope it will end before ramadhan. Hmm doubt it will happen but who knows. It's 3am and im tired so i will end here, dont know when im gonna write again tho. But..... bye.
Thanks for reading. ^_^
