ok so hi im back again with my late night post. late night post turning into parts atp cause i keep updating at night lmao. so what am i gonna write today hmmmmm idk myself tbh i just randomly feel like updating tonight. i was checking my yt comments history and saw this comment about dream. so lets talk about that i guess. not that "what you wanna be" dream. dream you got when ur sleeping yeah lol. i used to dream a lot back then but nowadays i barely have any dream. maybe bcs i keep sleeping past 3am i dont dream anymore??? idk. however i keep having a dream about this one..... person.
[clears throat] so to start there's this one guy i used to like during high school (i only liked 1 one guy in my entire 5 years high school so yeah it's the same guy i talk in my priv post) and on my second year liking him he would ALWAYS appeared in my dreams every 2 weeks. there was never a month where he never missed to appear in my dream. this thing still goes on till today and it's been 7 years. (too damn long istg imagine how tired am i) i stopped liking him now but he still appears sometimes but not as often as before. maybe one time in three months. and the dream changed too over the years. during the times i liked him the dreams were always like i saw him from afar admiring but never once spoke with each other. but after i stopped liking him, everytime he appeared in my dream, he would try to get close and flirt with me. and all those dreams always took place at school. only two three times at some other place. and oh i once dream i confessed to him. i still rmb that dream tho. wait not really but i did write abt it lemme find it again.
[1 min later]
found it aha. i will just summarize cause the whole thing is so long lol. at this time i was eager to forget him so i guess that's how this dream happened?
um soooo i just arrived at kampung and my friend suddenly stopped me from looking back (like she kinda want me to leave) and i can already guess whats that about so i was okay i'll go. then when i was about to leave he saw us so we quietly try to leave thru back door but suddenly we saw e/o again. i ran upstairs but too late he alrd saw me. i didn't rmb what happened next but he was like "whats wrong with you" and all in a worried tone. atm i was on mental breakdown thinking when will all this shit end. then he kinda forced me to answer his questions which i dont rmb abt what sorry and idk maybe i was too uhh overwhelmed(?) i confessed to him but it was so hard for the words to come out and BITCH HE ACCEPTED. then i told him smth like "aku ni tak byk ckp kalau aku byk diam ka apa sorry" or in eng "im not the type to talk a lot sorry if im always quiet" and i woke up later so that was it lmao. i dont rmb if i was crying at that time while saying that.....
uhh fun fact i only ever tell this to one person but now im writing them here...
but one thing for sure it's getting tiring now cause i really want to forget him but he always popped in my dreams. i always wondered if this has some meaning. i did search abt this back then but it was only "that person misses you" and yeah i used to believe that really embarassing but now lmao that's pure bullshit.
um thats all for tonight im getting sleepy now. goodbye
